Clare Crawley admits she tried to come back from a ‘dark place’ after painful separation

It’s been almost two weeks since Clare Crawley and her fiance Dale Moss separated.

And The Bachelorette took to Instagram Live on Friday to talk to fans about how she feels since the split.

The 39-year-old star said she struggles with anxiety, explaining, ‘I’m now getting to a point where I’m really trying to come back from that and turn around because it’s a dark place. where to be when you have a lot of stuff piled up on top of each other.

A day later, Dale, 32, took to his Instagram Live to talk about their breakup, via US Weekly.

He got emotional and cried about it, “ It upset me. ”

Clare, who revealed she has just returned from getting her nails done, thanked fans for their support but also noted that she had received some cruel messages.

The hatred, combined with the COVID-19 pandemic, caring for her mother with Alzheimer’s disease and dementia, has left anxiety and panic attacks.

Clare said: ‘I’m getting to the point where I’m really trying to come back from that and turn around because it’s a dark place to be when you have a lot of stuff compiled on each other.’

She came out of the difficult chapter by practicing gratitude and listing 10 things she is thankful for.

“ My idea of ​​love and being loved is to have everything that we go through, all of the things that we have been through in life, be it as you want to call it, like luggage, experiences , trauma, whatever we go through, whatever we take with us, show it with him, ”she said.

Adding: ‘And to know … despite it all, as if you are loved and will be loved by the right person for whatever you bring to the table, be it the good, the bad, whatever we bring the table, the right person will love you for that.

Dale, a former soccer player, recalled: “ I have felt so much emotion, so much guilt, but also so much confusion, so much pain, and I know we both have it. ”

Adding: “ And looking for so many answers – before it even happened, how to make it better. But the reality is, life is not perfect. And we make mistakes. I’ve done a lot, I know we all do.

“ My pops would always say you have to hurt before you heal. I was f ***** g. A lot.’

He went on to say, “ I remember it was clear like the day, like praying, just with so much that has happened in life, with family and having to keep going. I got so numb, just f ***** g cold and numb to feel where nothing would put me in tune, and I remember sitting down and praying like, I just wanna feel again, I wanna fight again, I’m tired of going through things, you know, being alone.

Adding: “ And then you always have these ideas of how things are supposed to be, what you will represent, what you are going to put up with, what you want from a relationship, what you want out of love. and when you really fall, that shit comes out the f ***** g window.

He mentioned that “ the smallest thing can cut you the deeper ” and he reflected on the year: “ So many people try to keep their heads above water in so many ways and act like everything is fine, but damn all of us go through this and i think the most important thing is knowing that it’s okay. And you can’t do it all. you cannot be everything for everyone.

Dale has told his friends and family about everything because he says the “situation with Clare” is “fucked up.”

“I think everyone is looking for an answer, a good way to handle these things, someone to be guided and there really isn’t one.

It was love at first sight for Clare, who instantly thought Dale was her future husband when she first met him on The Bachelorette.

The couple eventually got engaged, and Clare even left the show early to be with him, paving the way for Tayshia Adams to replace the Bachelorette.

Clare was thrilled with her new relationship, but unfortunately, a few months later, she found herself single.

Dale publicly announced the split news on Instagram on January 19, which Clare clarified was not a part of, although he said it was a “ mutual ” statement.

Two days after announcing their breakup, Clare said she was ‘crushed’ and needed time to digest everything.

Dale even landed at the center of rumors he had been unfaithful to a woman named Eleonora Srugo, but a representative for her has since denied the allegations.