A girl, a man, a lesbian: some of the nine identities that coexist in Jane Hart

Jane Hart, 28, a mother of two, shared her therapy sessions for the new documentary series of A & E called "Many sides of Jane".

Imagine waking up, looking down and seeing 10 tattooed lines around your wrist and arm, and you do not know how that happened.

For Jane, it was her reality. He has nine different identities, which he calls "parties", Because of the disorder, he sometimes experiences amnesia depending on the identity of which he has control.

Alexis, a 17-year-old rebel who loves to have fun, has opted for body art.

"I did not know, no," said Hart. Daily Mail. Alexis and the tattooist drank together "And that's why the tattoo has that appearance, but that's all I know"he explained.

Hart opened his life with his two young children and therapy sessions to show what it means to live with a dissociative identity disorder: headaches that cause a change, how she leaves herself on paper and electronic reminders for moments she does not remember and how she tries to maintain friendships and relationships.

The series had its detractors. He has been repeatedly called "fake" on social networks.

Spectators have formulated specific criticisms, asking how Jane could switch to the role of the child while driving, and why a woman with nine roles, some of whom are children, would look for a job in a bar.

"I would never wish this trouble to anyone."Why simulate something that is really difficult?Hart says in the program.

Spectators also pointed out the special "nebulous" effect that was used to show when Hart was moving somewhere else, and some described it as "exaggerated", useless and the reason why some doubted the show.

However, others applauded Hart for opening his life and sharing his struggles.

In the series of six episodes, the different parts of Jane are presented. Some are aware of the abuse and others do not.

here Janey, of six years, an innocent girl who loves her stuffed animal elephant. Beth, 10 years old, qwho "keeps a lot of memories of abuse" and tries to "keep the wrong people away from Janey". Jaden, eleven yearsIt's very mocking. The above Alexis, 17 years old, seeks attention and likes to wear makeup and party, while 19 years old, Ashley he's just starting to tell his story. Madison is 28 years old and we also have a bad party.

A party called Jerry, ageless, does not want to be in front of the camera and write a note to express how you feel. Jane has a male part called Jeffery, also ageless, according to the press release on the program.

Dissociative identity disorder is "a failure to integrate the aspects of identity, memory, and consciousness that usually involve a reaction to abuse or trauma at the beginning of the process." life, at a time when one would consolidate one's identity ", Dr. David Spiegel, who has been treating patients for about 40 years, said DailyMail.com

"They maintain the fragmentation in part because it was a defensive protection"He said, and pointed out that it is "a chronic type of post-traumatic stress disorder ".

Hart describes the moment when he changes his personality: "I have a very clear headache in the center of my forehead, I have the impression of falling back to the background."

With certain identities, like Madison; Hart said that he had complete amnesia.

Jane does not remember anything, she knows what happened with fragments of information that she meets later.

"It may sound very strange if you do not know what's happening to you."

In the first episode, Hart remembers part of his childhood: he grew up in a large onion farm in Idaho.

When I was a child, I heard voices. "It was like having a lot of partners in the head"she says in the program.

Her mother, Christena, points out that Hart was a heterobadual, athletic and active student.

But suddenly, something was wrong. "I did not know what it was," says Christena, "I did not know how to handle that, I was scared."

By the time Hart was in high school, the discussions and conversations in his head were transforming him.

"I was 17 when I started to remember my trauma, especially badual abuse, but many types of abuse"Hart said.

Hart does not identify who mistreated her during the series and refused to discuss it with DailyMail.

"In spite of all that I have lived, I want to respect everyone who has helped me to raise and I do not want to hurt anyone." I've been hurt and I do not want to hurt anyone and I know this may not be the most healthy point of view, but that's my point of view, and I do not want to tell the world that hurt me, it will not solve anything"he said.

When your marriage begins to break and the voices in your head get worse, Hart said in the program that she was considering suicide, but that she could not move forward because of her children. After four years of marriage, she divorced, got custody of her children and returned to Boise.

At the age of 24, she began treatment and about three years ago she was diagnosed with a dissociative identity disorder or IDDM.

"It hit me like a ton of bricks," she says in the series. "It's shocking and very difficult to discover."

He began to investigate the mess, wrote about it and appeared on a podcast.

In addition to fighting the stigma of people living with mental illness, Hart said he wanted to raise awareness about child abuse.

Hollywood's portrayal of this disorder has added to the perception that people with TDI are dangerous. The most recent example is the 2016 movie, & # 39; Split & # 39;, in which the main character has a dissociative identity disorder and removes three teenagers.

"It's not what we are"Hart said during the show.

Dr. Christopher Waters, the clinical psychologist who treats Hart in the program and continues to do so, notes that for some, the disorder is a controversial diagnosis and that some people think that the person is "acting" or "trying to attract a lot of attention".

"It's a mental disorder observed for hundreds of years".

In the late 1990s, Dr. Spiegel helped change the name of DID, formerly known as multiple personality disorder, in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders.

She stated that Hanson, the director and the organization's doctor had reviewed episodes of anything that contributed to the stigma or stereotypes about Hart's disorder and recovery.

"I think we could, in the best possible way, capture every day how someone lives with a mess"said Hanson.

"Their parts were in conflict because of that, everyone did not accept it and some parts did not come out with us because they did not want to be part of it."

Hart said the hardest part of the shoot was probably to be surrounded by people all the time because usually can not relate to others.

Since the show aired, He has received many messages from people with the disorder or other mental health issues.

"It's incredibly powerful to hear all these stories and it's also sad because there's a lot of abuse in the world."he said.

Hart stated that his children had not seen the program and would not see it. During the series, she explains that her mother has a "single brain". Just before the broadcast, the two children met with their therapist, Dr. Waters, and told them that they understood the subject better, but that it was not discussed at an adult level.

"Although DID is something difficult for people to understand"he said. "I think it was done so beautifully that I hope people will be receptive."