Billie Eilish reveals she is “ashamed” of her past after racial slurs scandal

Billie Eilish has revealed that she is “ashamed” of her past actions surfacing online.

In a new interview with Vogue Australia, the 19-year-old pop superstar said everyone has an “embarrassing” past, including her.

“It’s really strange how the world can see all aspects of your life and remember [it]. It’s so weird, ”the Bad Guy singer said.

“The internet brings up things from everyone’s past and I’m like, ‘Don’t you understand that everyone is incredibly embarrassed and ashamed of their past? ”

“Like, don’t you think about the fact that maybe you are embarrassed about your past so maybe everyone is embarrassed too?” “

The performer, who also stars in a stunning fashion shoot in this month’s issue of the magazine, added that she had changed her mind about many of her past views.

“I said so many things back then that I totally disagree with now, or I think I do,” she admitted.

“The strangest thing is that nothing ever disappears once on the Internet. Every interview I did when I was 15 is still there, and I think about it constantly.

The comments come after Billie said she was “embarrassed and dismayed” last month when a video of her as a teenager appeared on TikTok, showing her uttering a racist slur.

In a statement on Instagram, Billie said she was “tagged something that [she’s] not ‘in connection with the old clips.

“There’s a video montage around me when I was 13 or 14 saying the word for the song that at the time I didn’t know it was a derogatory term used against members of the community. Asian, ”she wrote. on Instagram. “I am dismayed and embarrassed to want to throw up that my mouth belongs to that word.”

“This song was the only time I heard this word because it has never been used around me by anyone and my family. Regardless of my ignorance and my age at the time, there is nothing to excuse the fact that it was hurtful. And for that, I’m sorry.

She also addressed a second clip which showed her appearing to mock an Asian accent.

The Lovely performer said: ‘The other video that edited the clip is me speaking in a voice made up of stupid gibberish … something that I started doing as a kid and did. all my life talking to my pets, friends and family. This is absolutely gibberish and it’s just me playing the fool and it’s NOT an imitation of anyone or any language, accent or culture in the slightest.

Billie once said that anyone who knows her knows that “fooling around with [her] the voice is [her] all the life.’

She added that the negative answer “breaks [her] heart ‘because she wouldn’t want people to be hurt by her, even if it was due to a misinterpretation.

“Regardless of how it was interpreted I didn’t mean to say that any of my actions have caused harm to others and now it breaks my heart that it is being labeled now in a way that could cause pain to the people who hear it, ”she said. . “Not only do I believe in, but I have always worked hard to use my platform to strive for inclusion, kindness, tolerance, fairness and equality.”

She concluded by writing: “We all need to keep having conversations, listening and learning. I hear you and love you, thank you for taking the time to read this. ‘

Some fans have defended her, saying the video could be linked to her Tourette syndrome, which she admitted to having in 2018, although she said it only manifested in physical tics, not verbal noises. .