Ed Sheeran expresses about the fight against anxiety: "I isolated myself from reality"

World Superstar Ed Sheeran reduced his friendship group to four people and got rid of his phone while he was fighting social anxiety.

The 28-year-old "Shape of You" singer admitted, "I'm anxious every day."

Ed added, "It scares you. I have been working on it for eight years and I have moved away from reality. Whether to get rid of your phone or just watch emails twice a day. Or reduce my friendship group to the absolute minimum to be able to trust everyone. I let people in from one place, let in and then let in.

Ed – who has sold 150 million albums and seen the success of his latest tour realize an incredible $ 628 million – said his crippling state had been triggered by the pressures exerted by his worldwide fame.

The singer, raised in Ipswich, Suffolk, spoke about his fight against mental health in an interview for the launch of his latest album – No.6 Collaborations Project, above. He expressed his frustration to the people who talk to him with the sole intention of taking a picture.

He even wondered why his wife Cherry Seaborn, 26, was staying with him in the interview extremely revealing. He admitted that the glory had left him disconnected and revealed that he was avoiding going out.

Ed is open to explain, "I have a social anxiety. I do not like large groups of people, which is ironic since I play shows in front of thousands of people. I feel claustrophobic and I do not like being surrounded by many people. I have no problem talking to people. But that's when people film me and look at me. It makes me feel weird.

"It makes me feel like I'm not human. If you want to come to me and have a conversation with me. Even if we have never met, just go up. But what cuts me off instantly is that you spend a moment with them who is so genuine and so kind, then in the end they ask for a picture.

"It puts you on the ground and you only have 15 likes on Instagram. That's all you are. I was at a Marilyn Manson concert and a man shook my hand and told me that he loved my music, and that was all. It was so nice. As if I were eating now in a restaurant, I would rather have a private room, because if I eat in the public room, people are filming me while I eat my food. You feel like a zoo animal. I do not want to complain, I have a job and a nice life. But I just want to avoid that.

Never before has Ed, a naturally private person, disclosed such personal information. He said his torment was triggered by the rise in glory of the release of his 2017 single Shape Of You from his album Divide. Until then, he had managed to live his life away from the spotlight.

The record became platinum and Ed became a public figure overnight – which meant he was unable to go anywhere without being recognized. That year, he also received an MBE for his services to music.

Speaking about the transformation, Ed said, "Before, I lived in New York and I went out every night, but the fact of publishing Shape Of You brought me to a new level of notoriety. . I met people everyday with movies and music.

"I was getting sucked up. I felt empty. If I lived in central London and frequented people, I did not know if they were friends with me because of me or who I am. That's why I moved here.

Here for Ed, lies the $ 2.5 million estate that he bought in Suffolk, where he can stay completely out of sight. His house is located in the middle of the sprawling site – Ed having bought all the houses on the land. He said about his decision to cut himself off: "All of these things are in place to protect my mind and it works, I think."

After the success of "Shape Of You," Ed found himself plunged into an endless cycle: two world tours that drove him on the road for four years. During his career, he has won numerous industry awards, including six British and four Grammys.

A major turning point in Ed's life was to reconnect with Cherry, childhood darling. The couple met at the age of 11 but they separated when they finished their studies. Cherry moved to America while Ed stayed in the UK to work on his music.

But after being found in 2015, they started dating. In February, The Sun revealed in exclusivity that the couple was knotted during an intimate ceremony held in a church in Ed's estate.

He said that he was now trying to balance his life and devote more time to Cherry and his four friends, who travel with him around the world. However, he still has trouble understanding why Cherry chose to marry him.

Ed admitted, "I constantly get up every day to watch Cherry and wonder why you are with me. She could be with whom she wants but she has chosen me.

And I say everything that's wrong with me and you always want to be with me. It does not add fuel to the flames. If she said, "Yes, why am I with you?"

"But I think it's nice to think that the person with whom you are is outside your league. Imagine if you thought, you're with me because I'm great. It would be the worst thing, just take it for granted.

Ed's candid interview comes with 15 of the 15 tracks from his latest studio album, in which he sings about his insecurities about his marriage and his appearance. The No.6 Collaborations project contains a collection of duets featuring some of the biggest names in music, including British artist Stormy and Canadian pop star Justin Bieber.

Remember The Name – a collaboration with American rappers Eminem and 50 Cent – Ed – suggests in his lyrics that his insecurities arose from the fact that he believes himself "unsuitable".

He rapped: "I was born unsuitable, I grew up about fifteen kilometers from the city of Ipswich."

In another piece, "Best Part Of Me", he points to a nod against the lack of self-confidence and sings, "I'm going from light to overweight day after day, it's fluctuating – why on earth? m & # 39; love does. "

He also believes that his hair is starting to become sparse and appear pale, which affects his feelings. But he explained that being with Cherry and keeping close friends helped him cope. Ed said, "I spend a lot of time on the road and I have to believe that all we have is.

"Before, I spent 800 nights on tour. I do not remember 2014-2015, it's unclear. Cherry has an office job, so she can not go out as much as she wants. But now I'm taking my friends on tour. I have four best friends and it's not blurry now. We eat well or we finish and we will relax and have a bottle of wine in my room.

While his superstarom aroused anxiety, Ed said it gave him opportunities he would never have offered if it were not for his success. He said, "I can have a private jet to be able to spend another day with Cherry.

"Money is not the object, time is. And my success has allowed my parents to slow down. I have more quality time with my father now because he does not work anymore, he comes on tour with me. I reached a level of financial success very early. I can not be bought. I do not need to be bought now. "

And while claiming that he will never stop singing, Ed said that he had begun to think about the future and slow down his career. He added: "Something must give. I start a life with Cherry and I can not spend the next 20 years on the road.

"Children would be the difference. I would not mind sacrificing for them. If someone tells me you will not be able to tour for the next ten years if you have kids, that's fine, that's what I'm committed to doing. I already realized more than I thought, so I'm just trying to have fun. "

This article originally appeared in The Sun.