Mandy Moore on marriage "unhealthy" with Ryan Adams

Mandy Moore is lost. She felt devastated, alone and controlled because an "unhealthy dynamic" of codependency had put the career of one of the nation's beloved pop stars and an actor force emerging in suspense. The abuse, she said, was too hard to bear.

Although there was no particular moment that prompted Moore to seek a divorce from singer-songwriter Ryan Adams in 2015, she said that he was emotionally and verbally abusive towards her throughout their lives. marriage, which she knew she could not continue.

"I lived my life for him, I had no sense of myself," said Moore, 34, to comedian Marc Maron during the episode of his WTF . Podcast. "I had the impression of drowning me – it was so unbearable and unbearable and I felt so alone – I was so sad – I was alone with him."

In the 85-minute episode, Moore, a star of the hit NBC series This Is Us spoke of his tumultuous marriage for the first time since Adams was accused of last week by seven women, including his ex-wife, various types of abusive behavior, including psychological and emotional and badual manipulation.

Adams, 44, apologized "deeply and unreservedly", but denied all accusations, tweeting that the story published in the New York Times depicted an "incredibly inaccurate" picture. The FBI announced last week that he was looking into whether Adams was engaging in badually explicit online communications with a girl from 14 to 16 years old.

Moore explained to Maron how his relationship with Adams began about a year after his mother told her father that she was leaving him for a woman with whom she had an affair. Then, a 23-year-old pop star, Moore was touring in Minneapolis in 2008 when she and her band went to see Adams, who was also in town for a concert.

"As an impressionable woman of 23 years He was really fascinated by him, I had never met anyone who had this goal on the world," she remembers this first experience. They were married a year later, an accelerated relationship, she added, was a way to "calm down" after the emotional upheaval of her family. "I was a loving mitt," she said.

But almost from the beginning of their marriage in 2009, Moore said the pressure exerted by Adams had led her to reduce her career, regularly giving her actress positions to be able to be at home . to be a supportive spouse. Last week, Moore told The Times that Adams was psychologically abusive to her, including saying that she was not a true musician. As she described to Maron, she had become "so small" and she said that the dynamics in her relationship with Adams made her "feel dignified". "I got married in 2009 and it was then that things calmed down," she said.

She then added, "I'd do a little bit of work, it's not like I've completely stopped working, I'll do things here and there, but it's become very clear that, while I was working, things were completely spoiled at home I could not do my job because there was a steady stream of attempts to pay attention to this person who needed me and did not want

Adams, through his attorney, denied the description of their relationship with the Times last week, claiming that this relationship was "totally inconsistent with his vision of the relationship" and that he supported the "well-deserved Moore Prosper" . "

But when addressing Maron, Moore says that she finally acknowledged that she was not the person she wanted to be, a direct result of her." Adams

"I would try to defend myself, but I hate confrontation. "she said to Maron." It was just a lot of endless conversations, looping conversations, crying, all this for months and months and months. "

That would change months after the finalizing the divorce in 2016, she said, and it was then that she landed the role of Rebecca Pearson on This Is Us Two years later, Moore marries Taylor Goldsmith , leader of the Dawes.

On social media, many people hastened to congratulate Moore for providing a window on a difficult time that is now replayed in front of the world with the recent accusations against her.

Moore ponders a conversation with a friend who prefigures happier times

"My best friend at the time was: 'You will not be able to work or find a semblance of success' 39 are in this marriage & # 39; "She said. "I remember having pooped it at the time, but also from the agreement.I tell you however, six months after the end of the divorce, I had the show . "

A lighter moment, Maron noted. Moore's relationship with Adams could have prepared him to play a role featuring his character showing strength and loyalty to his family, in good times as well as in bad days. I was ready, "said Moore laughing.

" You had a lot of things, "replied Maron.

" I had a lot of baggage to bring to the table, "he said. Moore.

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