Temptation-Ruud was at the coke every weekend Entertainment

Ruud begins the conversation by saying that he "has not always had a very good time." "Being comfortable with yourself and being satisfied with yourself is not always easy. That's why I spent three months in therapy two years ago, I got stuck in my life. "

Uncertainty is the lifeblood of his life, and as a little boy he already had a bad self-image and it has gotten worse over the years." had the biggest blow when his parents separated when he was seventeen and his mother had a new relationship.He chose her own happiness and left Ruud with her father. " was as if I had stayed back. I still see myself sitting in this room, I had to cry. It really had an impact. I felt abandoned. "

Drugs

When he was twenty, he reached a low point." I was really more pleased with myself. I did not feel well anymore, I went a lot less and when I went out, I used coke and pills all weekends. It was not so addictive, only I did not become happy because of it. I could just get out of my roof and I did not feel any pain because of the drugs. During the week, I had to recover from drugs. And if you're fit again, the next weekend starts again. It was a vicious circle that I could not understand. "

That he later became a well-known Dutchman did not improve things." I got a little tortured in recent years. I was not comfortable with myself and went to programs where I had to be even more extreme than I thought. Then you do not want people to see you vulnerable. You always pretend, as if you were the male and you had everything for the other. It was a very bad combination. "

Therapy finally made me feel good again." I learned to have love for me, it's good like you. I reprogram myself with the result that I feel good for two years now. "