Amanda Bynes confesses that she had a drug problem

Amanda Bynes looks like herself in a preppy blazer and jeans on the cover of Paper magazine, while she reveals her public failure after several years in the limelight.

The 32-year-old is the star of the third annual issue of Break the Internet, in which she explains in detail how social media and drug use have led to her public downfall.

"All that I've been working on all my life, I've messed up with Twitter," she admitted, adding, "This is definitely not Twitter's fault," he said. It's my fault. "

Amanda slowly returns to the limelight after a mental depression in 2014 that led to her being placed under psychiatric control.

Her lawyer, Tamar Arminak, approached her mental health problem that year, then declared that she did not suffer from schizophrenia and that she wanted her diagnosis to remain confidential.

Months later, a tweet was posted on her official account, stating that she had been diagnosed bipolar and manic-depressive. Later, she went on Twitter to say that a friend had taken her phone and posted the tweet.

That same year, she had tweeted that she wanted Drake to "murder my vagina" and accused her father of mistreating her before retracting.

People were quick to put a psychological tag on her behavior during this time, and Amanda confessed to Paper that she was embarrassed by the headlines about her mental health.

She insists that her past behavior – including her wild tweets – was induced by drugs.

"If you refuse anything and tell them what it is, they will not believe you," she said. "Really, for me, [my behaviour] was drug induced, and every time I came out of [drugs]I was always back to normal. "

Amanda admitted that she was "really ashamed and embarrassed" by what she had said at the time.

"I can not go back but if I could, I would," she said. "And I'm so sorry for all the people I've hurt and lied to, because it really eats me up." It makes me feel so horrible and sick of sadness and having stomach ache."

The star child said she did not really like the taste of alcohol as a teenager, but she started smoking marijuana at the age of 16. She added, however, that she was not "addicted" at that time.

In her early twenties, Amanda struggled to see herself, especially after seeing her performance in the 2006 film, She's Man, a modern version of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night.

The actress played a teenage girl who dressed in drag to pretend to be her brother, and she was unhappy to see herself with short hair and paws.

"I stayed in a deep depression for 4 to 6 months because I did not like my appearance when I was a child," she admitted, stressing that it was the first time that she was talking to anyone about it.

As he gets older, his drug use has progressed to become molly and ecstasy. She also said she tried cocaine three times, but "never enjoys it."

"I've definitely abused Adderall," she said, recalling having read a magazine article calling it a "new pill" by the time she played in the 2007 movie, Hairspray.

Amanda stated that she was able to obtain a prescription after consulting a psychiatrist and simulating the symptoms of ADD.

According to the star, being high on Adderall and not liking her appearance led her to stop filming the Hall Pass movie in 2010. Although it was reported that she was fired from the film, she said that she had "made a lot of mistakes", but was not fired.

On the set, she said that she would bite her tablets from Adderall in her caravan because she thought that she had become even taller. She reached the point where she was unable to memorize her lines.

Amanda remembers seeing an image of herself "on the screen and tripping" because she thought her arm "looked so big" before leaving the film.

The actress experienced a similar experience in 2010 when screening her latest film, Easy A, explaining that she "could not stand" her appearance.

"I was rich in marijuana when I saw this, but for some reason it really started to affect me," she recalls.

"I do not know if it was a drug-induced psychosis or whatever, but it affected my brain in a different way than the others." people. It absolutely changed my perception of things.

Amanda has been studying since 2014 at the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising in Los Angeles, more commonly known as FIDM.

She will be graduating as an associate in the development of derivatives this month and plans to continue her studies in January to earn her bachelor's degree.

Although she is interested in one day designing a complete line, she first wants to revive her acting career.

The story of Amanda is a telling tale. She warns of the dangers of introducing drugs because "some things you think are harmless, they can actually affect you more damagingly."

"Be really careful because you could lose everything and ruin your whole life as I did," she said, pointing out that she had finished experimenting with drugs and that she She did not miss them at all.

"When I was outside of them, I was completely back to normal and I immediately realized what I had done – it was as if a Alien had literally invaded my body, "she says. "It's such a strange feeling."