Yovana Mendoza, aka Rawvana, the now infamous YouTuber mingled with scandal after her fans caught her with a plate of fish, expresses her and defends her decision to move away from a diet vegan.
Mendoza, 28, told BuzzFeed News that "his intentions are and have always been good". She said that she was just not ready to make public her diet change by the time she was exposed.
"I wanted to make sure it was something that I really had to do, and I would really feel better before sharing it publicly," she said.
She also wants to be able to eat whatever she wants or needs without being ashamed of it. "I listen to my body and learn to adapt to eat without judging myself and others," she said. "It makes me sad to see so much hate on the Internet."
Last Friday, the influencer and vlogger were forced to download a 33-minute video on YouTube, trying to explain why she seemed to consume meat in another vlogger's video.
Mendoza said she had faced a number of health problems since she was on a vegan diet and that she had already tried a 25-day fast water. She said the doctors had told her that she had a bacterial overgrowth in the small intestine and that they had recommended her to change her diet to include eggs and meat.
Two months ago, she started eating eggs and fish again, and her overall health improved, she said.
Unfortunately for Mendoza, her public address on the issue only made her fans more angry with her. Some accused him of misleading them, while others accused him of animal cruelty for having eaten animal products again.
She now wants to clarify some things to the online vegan community and other harsh critics: She does not denigrate a plant-based diet, nor does she plan to give it up.
"Although some put a lot of words in my mouth and made many assumptions and accusations, I never said that a plant-based diet led me to have SIBO," she said. "This way of life has transformed my life in many positive ways, including health, for years."
When asked why she continued to publish articles on her vegan lifestyle several days and weeks before her dismissal, Mendoza told BuzzFeed News that she "still defended this lifestyle."
"I think this diet has incredible benefits, and the vegan lifestyle makes you more aware of how we live our lives, from which we can all learn and grow," she said.
YouTuber finally hinted that she needed her "private time" during her transition, but that she would talk about it in more detail later.
"When I'm ready, I plan to share my recovery path with the public … good, bad, doubts and everything else," she said.