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Amanda Bynes "never liked the taste of alcohol" and found that marijuana was her favorite vice.
"I started smoking marijuana at the age of 16. Even though everyone thought I was the "good girl", I smoked marijuana from that moment, "revealed the former kid star in the magazine's magazine's magazine Break the Internet. Paper.
"I did not become addicted [then] and I did not abuse it. And I did not go out to party or ridicule myself … for the moment, she continued.
While Bynes, now 32, has experimented with "molly and ecstasy" – "[I tried] cocaine three times, but I never took cocaine, "she learned about Adderall after reading an article in a magazine at the same time in" Hairspray ", which opened in 2007.
"They were talking about how women took it to stay slim. I said to myself, "Well, I have to get my hands on it," said Bynes, after obtaining a prescription after visiting "a psychiatrist and mimicking the symptoms of ADD".
Bynes recalled that she had "chewed Adderall tablets" in her caravan during the 2010 "Hall Pass" shoot.
"I remember biting a bunch of them and I literally had my brain cut off and I was not able to concentrate on my lines or memorize them at the same time," he said. she said.
Bynes said it was "the mix of being so high that I could not remember my lines and not like my appearance" which led her to give up the film.
"I made many mistakes but I was not fired. I left … it was absolutely irreproachable for me to leave and get stuck when they had spent so much money on a set, as well as on the filming equipment, etc.
The release of "Easy A" in 2010 also triggered the Bynes spiral.
"I literally could not stand my appearance in this movie and I did not like my performance. I was absolutely convinced that I had to stop acting after seeing her, "she said.
"I was rich in marijuana when I saw that, but for some reason, it really started to affect me. I do not know if it was a drug-induced psychosis or anything, but it affected my brain in a different way than other people. It absolutely changed my perception of things, "said Bynes.
She announced her retirement from acting on Twitter in June 2010.
"If I was going to retire [the right way]I would have done it in a press release – but I did it on Twitter. Really chic! But you know, I was high and I thought, "You know what? I am so overwhelmed that I just did it. But it was really silly and I see it now. I was young and stupid, "said Bynes.
Following the decision, Bynes said that she "had no purpose in life".
"I would like to wake up and bake and be literally stoned all day," said Bynes, adding that she had begun "hanging out with a host of seeders".
"I really got used to drugs and the world became very dark and sad for me," she said.
Bynes turned to social media, where she tweeted in 2013: "I want @drake to kill my vagina." She was hospitalized in 2014 for an involuntary psychiatric care in Los Angeles.
"I am really ashamed and embarrassed by what I said. I can not go back, but if I could, I would do it. And I'm really sorry for those I hurt and for whom I lied because it really eats me up. It makes me feel so horrible and sick of sadness in my stomach, "said Bynes. "Everything I worked for all my life, I ruined everything with Twitter."
Sober for nearly four years, Bynes will receive his Associate Degree in Art, Derivatives Development from the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising in December, before graduating in January.
"These days of experimentation [with substances] have been for a long time. I am not sad and I do not miss it, because I am really ashamed of the way these substances made me act. When I was outside of them, I was completely back to normal and I immediately realized what I had done – it was as if an alien had literally invaded my body. It's such a strange feeling, "said Bynes.
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