Amanda Bynes amazes in her first magazine cover for years and addresses drug abuse "really sad"

Amanda Bynes opens her doors like never before.

Tipping a plaid blazer on a white blouse with jeans, the 32-year-old actress impresses PAPERof third cover for their 2018 issue "Break the Internet". In her interview with the magazine, Bynes explains bluntly why she has spent the last few years out of the spotlight … and wonders if she is ready for a comeback.

Bynes admits that although she never liked the "taste of alcohol" or going out to party in adolescence, she began to smoke marijuana at night. 16 years old, at the height of his fame.

"Even though everyone thought I was the" good girl ", I smoked marijuana from that time," she reveals. "I did not become addicted [then] and I did not abuse it. And I was not going to party or ridicule myself …again. "

A few years later, Bynes explains that she began experimenting with harder drugs. "Later, she started doing molly and ecstasy," she admits. "[I tried] cocaine three times but I never took cocaine. I have never liked that. It was never my drug of choice. "

She says that she "definitely mistreated Adderall", however, after reading "a new pill" in a magazine.

"They were talking about how women were taking it to stay slim," Bynes recalls, adding that she had received a prescription from her psychiatrist after "simulating" the symptoms of attention deficit disorder. "I thought to myself, Well, I have to get my hands on that."

What began as a fun experiment eventually led to a public breakdown: Bynes was the victim of several driving offenses, published disturbing tweets and was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital. She thinks that abusing Adderder played a big part in her behavior at the time, which some people got wind of the first time while she was spinning. Hall Pass in 2010.

"When I was doing Hall PassI remember being in the caravan and I chew Adderall tablets because I thought [more] high [that way]," she says PAPER. "I remember biting a bunch of them and literally losing my head and not being able to focus on my lines or memorize them at the same time."

"I remember seeing my image on the screen and stumbling literally thinking that my arm was so big because it was in the foreground or whatever and I remember myself. to be rushed to tell me, "Oh my god, I look so bad," she adds, alleging that she had left the movie because of the "so high mix that I do not I could not remember my lines "and" dislike "her appearance." I made a lot of mistakes, but I was not fired. I left … it was absolutely unprofessional for me to leave them and leave them stuck while they had spent so much money on set, team and camera equipment, and so on. . "

She had the same feelings after being seen in Easy that same year. "I literally could not stand my appearance in this movie and I did not like my performance, I was absolutely convinced that I had to stop playing after seeing it," confesses Bynes. "I was rich in marijuana when I saw that, but for some reason, it really started to affect me." I do not know if it was a psychosis caused by the drugs or something else, but this has affected my brain in a different way from that of other people.This has absolutely changed my perception of things. "

"I saw her and I was convinced that I should never be filmed again, and I officially withdrew from Twitter, which was, you know, so stupid," she says. "If I was going to retire [the right way]I should have done it in a press release – but I did it on Twitter. Really chic! But, you know, I was high and I thought: "You know what? I am so overwhelmed that I just did it. "

Bynes calls the movement "really stupid" – she says that she was "young and stupid" at the time, and if she could go back in time, she would change everything that makes her now feel "really ashamed" and embarrassed ".

"I had no purpose in life," she says. "I worked all my life and [then] I did not do anything. I had a lot of free time and I woke up and cooked and I literally broke down all day. … I really got used to drugs and the world became very dark and sad for me. "

Now, it seems that Bynes has cleaned up his lifestyle. She tells the shop that she's been sober for almost four years and that she will be receiving her associate arts degree from the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising (FIDM) in Los Angeles this month. this. And even though she would like to come out one day with her own fashion line, she says that she wants to "get back to playing first".

Bynes has appeared in a number of leading roles in television shows and movies over the years, including She is l & # 39; man, Amanda's show and What I like about you. But she will never forget her claim to fame in the '90s, featured in Nickelodeon's comedy sketch show, All that.

"It was a dream come true," says Bynes about his role in the series. "It was amazing to me."

After giving his first interview in four years last June, it seems that Bynes is slowly starting to resurface in the eyes of the public.

Listen more to what she has done in the video below.

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