Jada Pickett Smith and I Broke Up Within Our Marriage

Putting the pieces back together. Will Smith and Jada Pickett Smith ounce hit rock bottom and "broke up" during their 20-year marriage, but according to the peer, divorce was never an option.

The low point for the pair started at her 40th birthday in 2011 after Smith hired Mary J. Blige Pinkett Smith's late grandmother.

"She's like it, it's my birthday and she's been the most ridiculous display of my ego," the 50-year-old actor admitted during a Monday, October 29, appearance on his wife's Facebook Watch series, Red Table Talk. "Crushed, right? And to this day I was crushed because it was true. It was not a party for her. When she called me on that, that's when I'm snapped. I snapped in front of Willow and Willow starts crying and she's like, 'Just figure it out.' "

Smith had another moment of clarity after Willow, 17, wanted to quit touring amidst the success of her 2010 hit "Whip My Hair." He said she was shaved off all of a "deep protest," adding, "I was building what I do not want that. "

"I saw for the first time what my dreams are about my love, my dreams and my dreams. And I realized [Jada] I had built, "he continued. "The house was too big, there was always too many people here, she did not want to travel the way we traveled. She did not want to go trolling on Twitter. She did not want any of that. "

Pickett Smith, 47, then weighed in: "And there was a decline from there."

"To have to let go of the picture, to have the go of the dream was devastating. We certainly had to destroy our marriage, "Smith explained.

Contrary to reports at the time, the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air alum and the Girls Trip star maintained that divorce was never on the table.

"I had never seen a divorce lawyer! It never even crossed my mind, "Pinkett Smith said after his husband noted that he was" reading in the tabloids that we were getting divorced. "

"Because I had been divorced before, I was not getting divorced again. Divorce was not an option, "Smith, who was married to Sheree Zampino from 1992 to 1995 added. "I was devastated even worse than a divorce. We broke up within our marriage and got back together again. We had to rebuild with new rules and something way, completely different. "

Smith and Pickett Smith, who tied the knot in 1997, are also parents of his Jaden, 20. The Aladdin star also shares 25-year-old Trey with Zampino.

"Pinkie Smith explained."

The rapper concluded: "Will Smith is a character, but deep down inside I was an insecure little boy who wanted Jada to say I was great, I did not say I was great, the dragon came out."

At the end of Monday's two-part episode, the twosome also cleared up rumors about their relationship, with Smith noting, "We've never been Scientologists, we've never been swingers."

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