Kaitlyn Bristowe breaks her silence with Shawn Booth

Kaitlyn Bristowe breaks his silence on his split Shawn Booth.

L & # 39; former bachelorette The star is open on the "big elephant in the room" during the episode of his podcast on Tuesday Grapevine with Kaitlyn Bristowe.

"It's been a few very difficult months now," admitted the reality TV star. "I really thought we were going out."

While Bristowe knew fans had suspected the split for a while, she said she realized the two men were at a "crossroads" during a recent trip to Canada.

"To be honest, I thought we would choose the road where we would end up together," she said while fighting tears. "I've just never made our commitment, or be engaged, lightly, I've had the mentality of doing everything necessary to make it work." And now, realizing, maybe at because of a fault, with all the difficult moments of life, here are lessons of life and that's what I need to remember from all of this.Sometimes you have to take a moment and step back to think about what you are fighting for and if that makes sense for your long-term happiness. "

After three years of living together, Bristowe said that she and Booth understood "that there were important fundamental values ​​that were not queuing," as well as "some things we do not know about. Would probably have never seen the same thing ". So, she said that both had decided to "be honest" with each other and leave with the memories and "beautiful moments" that they had created. She also stated that the relationships that fans saw on social media and television were authentic and did not play in front of the public.

"I want to remind people that what you saw on social media was real and what we had was real love," she insisted. "But when it comes to obstacles, core values ​​and cohesion, I do not think we were on the same page – and it's painful to admit it, but you need this foundation and you need this partnership will last forever. "

Bristowe then exploded on how she felt as if she was leaving Bachelor Nation down.

"Part of me always felt that I was disappointing with this breakup and my heart was sore," she cried.

She also explained how she missed the dog of the pair Tucker, who stays with Booth.

"I think I've been afflicted for a while," she said. "And knowing that Tucker is no longer home." "Sorry, sometimes I have the impression that he was almost the binder of our relationship." I obviously adore this dog, but I will always see him. "

While Bristowe admitted it was not easy to talk about the split, she felt the need to linger as so many fans followed their story from day one. She then thanked them for their support.

"I also wanted to thank everyone who respected this decision and for all the kind messages," she said. "I know that there are so many beautiful days ahead and, strangely, that I was dreading to publish this statement and accept that it was the end, it even allowed me to close the door of this thought forever and start to consider my new hope that with all this, I will be able to choose to go from the front and not in the rearview mirror to see what could have to be and what could have been different.I only hope that throughout this period, I will be able to help other women who might be going through a difficult time, men too, knowing that it There is light at the end of the tunnel and you must always choose the right path for yourself and for your own happiness, even if it means fighting against grief or hard times. "

In the end, she reassured her listeners that she had "a lot of love for herself" and that she "was going to find happiness."

"It's an obstacle on the road," she said, recalling a few words of wisdom from a friend "and everyone's going to have hot flashes all their lives." is just how you choose to cross them We are all stronger than we think we are Shawn was my best friend and you are in mourning for a relationship.

Even though they are no longer engaged in a romantic relationship, Bristowe revealed that she and Shawn "will remain friends".

Bristowe and Booth announced their separation earlier this month.

"After three incredible years, we decided to separate," said former ex-players in a statement. People. "This difficult decision comes after a thoughtful and respectful review.While we separate, we are very keen to remain friends.We have both evolved as people, which leads us in different directions, but with the difference. We hope that we will continue to support each other in new ways because our relationship has always been very public and we enjoyed sharing it with you all, but we ask you to respect our decision and our privacy at this time. "

During her podcast, Bristowe explained that neither she nor Booth had received money for sharing the news with the magazine. Although she admitted to perhaps having "disappointed" some of her fans by not directly announcing the split, she explained that it was a decision that they had taken together and that it would not have been fair to reveal it by itself.

Booth also talked about the split. In a recent Instagram post, he thanked his fans and followers for their support.

"I just want to thank everyone who has supported my relationship with Kaitlyn so well over the years," he said. wrote on Instagram. "You made me feel incredibly special, supported, and loved, so from the bottom of my heart, thank you, it really means a lot, and thank you to all who have sent their love and support during this painful time. love you."

Fans first met Bristowe on Chris Soules& # 39; Season of The single person. She then spent the roses in season 11 of The bachelorette. Booth quarreled with his heart and eventually offered.

To hear his full comment on the split, check out his podcast.