Mel B opens his doors on the 2014 suicide attempt in a new book

Mel B talks about his suicide attempt in December 2014 and his immediate regrets in his new memoir.

43 years old Spice Girls singer, former X Factor UK judge and America has talent the judge had mentioned the incident in a lawsuit in 2017 against her now-ex Stephen Belafonte, that she had accused of abuse and with whom she shares the youngest of her three daughters. In his book Brutally honest, whose release is scheduled for November 27, Mel describes in more detail his suicide attempt, recalling the consequences of having swallowed 200 tablets of aspirin.

"Now, what's going to happen, Melanie? STOP!" As soon as I swallowed this last pill, I knew I did not want to go anywhere, "she wrote, according to an excerpt. The sun published on Saturday. "Melanie! What are you doing? Get caught!" Suicide was not the solution. I had to count my life. I had to go to the hospital. Hospital. "

Mel wrote that the bathroom door was blocked and that she remembered being thrown on it, causing bruises in her face and shoulder that "everyone saw The X factor last three days later. "

according to The sun, Mel B recalled in his book his eldest daughter PhoenixThe heartbreaking reaction to seeing her at the USI, where she was treated for kidney and liver damage by the pills. The teenager asked her mother, "Why, Mom? Why? Why?"

"It was the saddest moment of my life," Mel wrote. "All I want is for her to know how sorry I am, how lost I am and how I will never give up on her."

In March 2017, Mel filed for divorce from Stephen, her husband for 10 years, and then obtained a restraining order to communicate against him, alleging that he was physically and verbally abusive. He denied his claims. She noted her 2014 suicide attempt in her documents, claiming that she had taken aspirin while she was overwhelmed by "physical and emotional" exhaustion. She then regretted her actions and tried to call the police for help.

She testified in court that Stephen had thrown her into the bedroom, had locked the door and told her to "die, bitch" and that the next day her driver had taken her to the hospital, where she had security monitored.

Mel skipped one X factor show after his hospitalization, but decided to attend the final and chose to wear a sleeveless dress that would voluntarily show his bruises and marks IV hospital. She also chose not to wear her wedding ring.

"I sent my message to Stephen," she writes. "There is no turning back, I will leave him, get a divorce, I will be free."

Mel and Stephen reached a private settlement at the end of 2017 regarding his domestic violence complaints.

The hospitalization of Mel was reported in the press when that happened. It was said at the time that she had been treated for a suspected stomach ulcer.

according to The sun, she wrote in her book that after her hospitalization she had called her X factor costar Simon Cowell, who "did not seem horrified, just calm, like he knew it was what I needed him". She also said that her classmates Spice Girls –Victoria Beckham, Geri Halliwell, Emma Bunton and Mel C reached for her.

"I could not talk to them," she wrote. "I was not ready and I was too ashamed My family also managed to find me, but these are the last people I wanted to see, I was stuck behind a wall of guilt, shame and of uselessness. "I had been hit in the past, but the bruises disappear."