" I am so sorry "

Amanda Bynes is trying to return. In the last issue of Paper Magazine, the former child star is back on his addiction problems, which have been a serious blow to his career. Visibly soothed, the 32-year-old actress tells her descent into hell and makes her mea culpa.

Star of his own program at 13 (The Amanda Show on Nickelodeon), known in France for the series What I like about you and his role in HairsprayAmanda Bynes ridiculed the eyes of the world in 2013. Between shock, outrage and fun, surfers followed the actress's wanderings on Twitter. She fought violently with stars such as Drake, Rihanna or Jay-Z. So many messages she regrets today:

"I'm really ashamed and very embarrbaded by the things I said, I can not go back in time, but if I could, I'd do it, and I'm so sorry for everyone I've been to lied (…) It makes me feel terribly wrong (…) All I had to do for a lifetime, I ruined it on Twitter. "

These tweets, Amanda Bynes attributed to the drugs she took: "When I did not take, I returned to normal and realized what I had done It was as if an alien had invaded my body.

Marijuana, MDMA, Ecstasy …

Before publishing the tweets that will ruin her image, Amanda Bynes was a promising young actress. Her adolescence spent on film sets has also long preserved excesses ("I did not start out when I was 25," she says). The one who "did not like the taste of alcohol" caught up with other substances:

"I started smoking marijuana when I was 16. At that time, I did not become addicted, and I did not abuse it, and I did not go out, I did not party. and I did not ridicule myself … not yet. "

"Later, I took MDMA and ecstasy," she says. I tried cocaine three times but it never made me hover. I never liked that. "His drug of choice was Adderall, a psychostimulant:

(I remember reading) an article in a magazine that called Adderall 'the new slimming pill', and they talked about women taking it to stay slim. I thought, 'I have to get it.'

"I was not able to concentrate anymore"

She explains that the effects of Adderall were felt on her acting job: "I was dazed and I was not able to focus on my replicas or memorize them." These problems, combined with her hatred of her own appearance, forced her to leave the shooting of Good for shooting, which she regrets today: "It was not at all professional for me to leave and leave them in plan while they had spent so much money on the set (…)."

After announcing her retirement on a whim on Twitter ("I was young and stupid") she started "hanging out with people a little sordid and much (s) isolate":

"I really increased my drug use and the world became very dark and very sad for me, I was stuck at home, I broke down, I watched television and I tweeted." The throes lined with legal difficulties, including one charge for hit-and-run and another for driving while intoxicated.

With the help of her parents ("They really helped me get back on track"), Amanda Bynes says she's sober "for almost four years". She studies fashion at the Los Angeles Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising (the school attended by girls from The Hills) and does not rule out a return to comedy. She would like to find this environment "with excitement and hoping for the best". America loves stories of redemption, and that of Amanda Bynes is just beginning.